DJ, I got something similar in the mail a few days ago, "Medicare and you 2016". It's the 150 page book about what all Medicare covers and the different options. I read about half of the parts that apply to me, and I wound up getting a migraine headache trying to comprehend exactly what's covered.
. Let's just say that I hope that I don't have to go to the doctor or ER. 90% of what's covered is completely useless to me. I need vision(I'm nearly blind without glasses) and dental coverage more than I need cancer screenings, diabetes tests, or cardiovascular disease screenings.
I'm still trying to figure out what to do with my life. I need to get out of my mom's house because our problems and arguments are starting to take a physical toll as well as a mental toll(it's been doing that for years.) Lately, I've had no desire to want to do anything. No energy, no want to live life or to plan for a better life/future. I've been sick with an almost constant migraine headache for over a week.
The problems with moving on are numerous. My disability is the main one. (Some minor physical things I can't do or I need help with). The other main problem is that I'm afraid of change. I'm so afraid that I'm willing to put myself through heck rather than try to move forward. It's an irrational fear that I've always had and could never overcome. I can't seem to break out of my shell, and since I've had limited social interactions over the past 4 and a half years(since I dropped out of high school), my shell has gotten even bigger. If I dread going to town to do normal things, how can go to college or hold down a job?
My uncle has tried to help me, but apart from listening, he can't do much. I need to resolve these issues before doing anything, but I don't know how. Therapy and the like is the obvious solution, but ny mom scoffs at the idea of stuff like that. How do you try to change things for the better when the person you're dependent on think it's a joke and is the cause of some of your problems? How do you move on when you have no plan or options? How do you overcome childhood trauma and mental pain/abuse (that you've had to hide to mentally survive) to become a successful adult? How do you overcome this stuff in a rural area with little/no help?
Gah- I like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown from the stress, anxiety, and anguish.
. I feel like I'm bring to hard on myself, but I feel alot of pressure to do great things because of my intellectual abilities. My family has always had high expectations for me, despite the lack of supporting me, and I feel like a failure for not living up to their expectations. Had everything gone right and I hadn't screwed up, I probably would've already been doing college ckasses in high school. I can't seem to get over my past to have a decent present and a better future.
About the only positive thing is that I've had a few more attempts at driving (rural country roads). I'm still far away from getting my license, though.
Sorry for the bit of a rant, but I currently feel like I'm going to go nuts or just collapse from the weight of it all.